I have struggled with social anxiety for as long as I can remember. As a child, I would become depressed when I noticed the first signs of fall because it meant the new school year was about to start. The anxiety would begin slowly: What if I don’t get any classes with my friends? What if I have to eat lunch alone? I didn’t have a lot of friends to begin with of course, so these questions were very troubling. Eventually these thoughts consumed me entirely. Even now, almost 10 years after graduating from college, I still get a little sad when I see the leaves start to fall from the tress.
As an adult I find it pretty difficult to make friends, but I am trying. In the past I would avoid social functions like the plague. For me, avoidance isn’t going to help in the long run. I am learning to say yes to possibilities, take more chances, and change my way of thinking when it comes to social situations. Every little victory helps to boost my confidence. Eye contact, a pleasant conversation with a stranger, etc. It doesn’t matter how small the victory seems, it is still a victory.
One thing that really helps me is remembering that 99.9% of people have some sort of hang up about themselves. Even the most outgoing social butterfly has insecurities. For anyone having trouble with mental health issues: please know that you are not alone. I went 30 years thinking that there was something wrong with me. I’m learning to accept myself, flaws and all. And I think you should accept yourself too ❤
Until next time…..cheers 😉