After seeing a therapist for several months, I started to feel better. I had more energy, I was doing things out of my comfort zone, and I was slowing gaining some self confidence. Then I got comfortable. Complacent, even. My old habits crept back into my life. I noticed myself withdrawing. Overeating. Feeling tired all the time. I felt terrible, emotionally and physically. Something had to change.
I then made a list of all of the things that make me feel better. Unfortunately, when you have zero energy, a lot of those things seem impossible. I would spend my day laying in bed until I had to go to work. Some days I wouldn’t shower or brush my hair. I would eat processed junk because I didn’t feel like cooking. How do you think I felt after 1 day of that behavior? How about 7 days? You’re right: I felt a million times worse.
It is a vicious cycle. I feel like crap, I have no energy, and I stop taking care of myself. Then I feel guilty because I let myself get so far off track that it seems impossible to climb my way back to where I was. That has to change. I believe it is necessary that I push myself each and every day to do some of the things that make me happy, even if I don’t want to do them. For the next 30 days, I am going to be blogging my progress. Each day, my goal is to do at least 3 things from the list below:
- eat balanced meals
- brush floss & mouthwash
- put on lotion
- do my makeup
- do my hair
- wear real clothes (no pajamas)
- do my nails
- catch up with family
- tidy up the house
- meal prep
- accomplish something I’ve been meaning to do
Today I didn’t do a lot, but I did manage to shower, brush and floss my teeth, use mouthwash, put on some lotion, and eat 3 nutritious meals. Just those little things make me feel a tiny bit better. Hopefully I can challenge myself into completing much more as time goes on 🙂
Wish me luck!
Until next time….cheers 😉