Sometimes its all I can do to get out of bed. Sometimes I can clean the entire house in one day. Here’s what I did today:
I woke up at 9 am and had my coffee & yogurt with berries. I watched the news & texted my husband good morning (he’s away on business this week). I sat in bed until noon watching tv and browsing the internet. Then I heated up my lunch in the microwave and unloaded the dishwasher while I waited. I washed some pans and knives that are hand wash only. Then I ate my lunch, which consisted of baked sweet potatoes, steamed broccoli, and 3 oz of ground turkey. I then convinced myself to caulk some nail holes in the baseboards upstairs. I have been putting this off for weeks. Actually, months. I hate caulking; its messy and I am too much of a perfectionist to be happy with less than perfect results. So I choose to put off these types of tasks until I can muster up the courage to try. It took me about 15 minutes to get all of the nail holes filled. After I finished, I couldn’t understand what took me so long to get the job done in the first place.
The answer is: me. I’m the reason why it took so long. I couldn’t get started because of my own fears. I knew the outcome wouldn’t be perfect, so I didn’t even want to try. I recognize this is silly; no one is perfect. So why should I expect perfection from myself? Maybe one day I will learn to care less and accept myself, flaws and all. Maybe today was a step in the right direction.
After finishing up my little project for the day, it was time to go to work. I couldn’t bring myself to caulk the gaps in the baseboards today, so maybe I will get to those later this week 🙂
Until next time….